Don’t Leave Me

Poem: Don’t Leave Me

I have tasted and seen
The great love you have for me
That’s when I make everything
Complicating
And even though you say every promise you keep
And your love
Is greater than all things
I just have a few things to say
Daughter to father
Daughter to father

Don’t leave me like everyone else
Don’ leave me I know I have my doubts
Don’t leave I am begging please
Don’ t leave me I know I’m overwhelming
Don’ t leave me I know Ive made mistakes
Don’t leave me when the battles hard to face
Don’t leave me when I don’t make sense
Don’t leave me when I fall to sin
Don’t leave me in my brokenness
Don’ t leave me
Daughter to father
Daughter to father

Everything I say to you
Is a promise to help carry you through
I am not going anywhere
I love you
Together we can conquer anything
My love is greater than all things
I just have a few thing to say
Father to daughter
Father to daughter

Don’t leave me I have plans for you
Don’ t leave me I consecrated you
Don’t leave me I am never leaving you
Don’t leave me heaven wants you
Don’t leave me I can give you hope
Don’t leave me when there’s so much to say
Don’t leave me I am begging you to stay
Don’t leave me there nothing you can do,
To make me not want you
Don’t leave me
Father to daughter
Father to daughter

I am running
I am running
I am running
I am running
I am running straight to you

I am never leaving your light
I am never leaving your peace
I am never leaving your joy
I am never leaving your kindness
I am never leaving your faithfulness
I am never leaving your goodness
I am never leaving your strengthen
I am never leaving your love
You gave me when you died on the cross
I am never leaving
I love you
I love you
I am never going to walk away from you

Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Don’t Leave Me

This season has been interesting, I woke up one day thinking what happened. I was so on track with God worshipping, journaling, praying, reading, and watching sermons. Waking up one day a couple of weeks ago and thinking what in the world happened I wasn’t praying, daily schedule was a mess, not working out, and really bad insomnia. Not really doing anything to connect with God throughout the day. When before that’s all I thought about, it was a constant awareness throughout the day and conversation with him. To thinking God where are you, when really it was me, slowly trying to take things back into my own hands and control without even realizing it. I wasn’t letting God control my day and actions, instead doing what I felt with my time, schedule and finances. To waking up one day and praying “God I am lost and it crept in. I need you stay with me” Receiving an overwhelming peace that God isn’t going anywhere, he is waiting for me.

Luke 15:20-24
20 “The son got up and went to his father. While he was yet a long way off, his father saw him. The father was full of compassion for him. He ran and threw his arms around him and kissed him. 21 The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am not good enough to be called your son.’ 22 But the father said to the workmen he owned, ‘Hurry! Get the best coat and put it on him. Put a ring on his hand and shoes on his feet. 23 Bring the calf that is fat and kill it. Let us eat and be glad. 24 For my son was dead and now he is alive again. He was lost and now he is found. Let us eat and have a good time.’

 

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No More Tears

Song idea let me know your thoughts!

I’ll be the first to tell you, I am not perfect
I’ll be the first to tell you, when I look in the mirror I think I am worthless
I’ll be the first to tell you, I have made big mistakes

But let me tell you about someone
Who changed everything
Jesus came
With his grace
And he saved me
I was on my knees
Begging please
For just someone to hold me
He said
child wipe your eyes
Stand up tall
I got my light
It’s going to show you
I got a plan
Hold my hand
We are going to do this
Child of mine
Don’t you cry

I’ll be the first to tell you, I don’t understand the world
I’ll be the first to tell you, I am just a scared girl
I’ll be the first to tell you, I didn’t think God could love me

But Let me tell you about someone
Who changed everything
Jesus came
With his grace
He wanted me for me
I was on my knees
Begging please
For just someone to Notice me
He said
child wipe your eyes
Stand up tall
I got the light
It’s going to show you
I got a plan
Hold my hand
We are going to do this
Child of mine
Don’t you cry

I’ll be the first to tell you, he loves you even on the darkest days
I’ll be the first to tell you, you too can be saved
I’ll be the first to tell you, your whole life can change

Except the invitation
Someone has a message for you tonight
My name is Jesus
Let my grace
Fill this place and
Save you
Get up off your knees
Begging please
For just anyone to love you
Child Wipe your eyes
Stand up tall
I claim you as mine
I got the light
It’s going to show you
I got a plan
Hold my hand
We are going to do this
Child of mine
Don’t you cry

I’ll be the first to tell you, heaven is calling you home
I’ll be the first to tell you, if your sacred your not alone
I’ll be the first to tell you, God wants you as you are
All you have to do is open your heart
Beloved
Don’t you cry

“He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” Revelation 21:4

And he also said “it is finished! I am the Alpha and the Omega—the Beginning and the End. To all those who are thirsty I give freely from the springs of the water of life. All those who are victorious will inherit all these blessings, and I will be their God, and they will be my child.  Revelation 21:6-7

Thoughts behind this is, yes there will always be something in life that I hate, wish I had more of or wished I could have done better.  The thing is whatever is happening in life good or bad its the will of God and what’s best. Whether it’s being blessed or being taught “dont you cry” God always has a plan. Also taking the focus off me me me and helping someone else “let me tell you about someone who can change everything” Being able to see in life the goodness, faithfulness, and love of God.

 

First Blog Post: Site Idenity

Trying to be a wild flower in a concrete jungle of this world and the American Dream that sets in concrete the standard at which success is measured. Which determines your value as a person how much money you have, your car, house, followers, Facebook likes etc. What if I told you I wanted to throw it all away, blow up everything I have accomplished so far. Blow up every idea of success pushed down my throat since kindergarten. Burn every picture on every social media platform I look to, to tell me what happiness looks like. Leaving me to figure out who I am, when really I just want to know why can’t I be them. Suffocating in comparison, poisoned by envy, and walking dead by jealousy. What if I told you at 22 I had accomplished everything society asked of me. I have a career in a job I love, my own apartment, moved away from home live by the beach, located in the #1 most visited city in the world. Feeling empty inside and question is this really it. Only to found out it means nothing and in the end if I die with only these things I acquired for myself my life was wasted. What did I really do, did I leave the world any better than when I was born into it. Trying to feel grateful and content only to be met with a stirring that if a butterfly is a small insect so beautiful with so many colors and can fly. Wouldn’t God have a more creative plan for my life much bigger plans than to work and die. At 23 I have found the love of my life Jesus Christ it was a long road to get to this point. I didn’t think this is where I would be writing a post about Jesus, but grace chases you down and shakes you to the core. Every question I have had about who am I, why am I here, what is the point to all this…I have the answers by finding my identity in Jesus Christ. Whatever your living with whether it’s feeling worthless, depression, addiction, sickness, trauma, relationships, or whatever it may be God is the only one that can give you the purest love, peace, strength, joy, guidance and this is his promise to us.

I googled what happens to plants after a fire article said “trees and decaying plant matter, when a fire turns them to ashes, nutrients return to soil instead of remaining captive in old vegetation. And when fire rages through dry underbrush, it clears thick growth so sunlight can reach the forest floor and encourage growth of native species. Fire frees these plants from the competition delivered from invasive weeds and eliminates diseases or droves of insects that may have been causing damage to old growth. Wild flowers begin to bloom abundantly.”

Article: https://science.howstuffworks.com/environmental/green-science/how-forest-fire-benefit-living-things-2.htm

Let’s Break it Down:
You don’t have to walk through the fire for when God puts out the flames the ashes of your past are going to be the nutrients for your future. These are the nutrients that are going to help others grow and inspire them. Whatever skepticism or doubts you have God says come as you are faith the size of a mustard seed seek God and watch him work in your life.
Matthew 17:20
And He said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.

Your old self is burned away you no longer have to live with anxiety, depression, addiction etc. you are set free from captivity or whatever chains were placed on you by the world. You are the beginning of a new creation the ashes is your testimony which is your nutrients to remind yourself of how great God is, his faithfulness and worthy of praise.
John 15:5
I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

Fire clears thick growth- any and all burdens you carry God wants to take from you. All your pain and scares you don’t have to hold on to anything the world has done to you or made think about yourself. You are set free.
Matthew 11:28-30
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Thick growth clears so sunlight can reach the forest floor and encourage growth. Let the revelation of Jesus, who he is and his love for you be the light that evaporates the tears you cry.
James 1:17
17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
Psalm 27:1
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid?
1 Peter 2:9
9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

Encourage Growth- stop trying to hide in shame invite him in, God wants to know your problems and have a personally relationship with you. In order for him to get inside your heart you have to let go of some of the hurt so you can move forward and see all God has planned for you. God wants you exactly the way you are God can not love you anymore or any less than he does right now in this moment. Gods love is not earned or held at a standard there is nothing you can do to earn it. It’s giving freely and abundantly he does not love like the world because he is not of this world.
Psalms 86:15
“But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.”

Fire frees these plants from the competition delivered from invasive weeds and eliminates diseases or droves of insects that may have been causing damage to old growth. Christ gives the authority to bring us out of a life of comparison, competition, rat race of the world and deliver us from the belief of self serving success of achieving the American Dream is the only thing worth living for.
Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Eliminates Diseases- whether it be sickness, mental, or physical pain.
Isaiah 53:5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
Psalm 103:2-4
2 Praise the LORD, my soul, and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion,
Isaiah 40:28-31
28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Wild flowers bloom abundantly- that God wants us to be free to be transformed, unafraid, worry less, burden less, to rejoice in him and bloom abundantly. The only message is love and by him be set free blooming all around the world showing the beauty of God for everyone to see spreading gospel and saving souls.

Listen here Wildflower:
I wrote this Song to encourage others stop letting the world devastate you and living in hell that your not supposed to be in. That there is a Savior that calls you beloved and desires to have a personally relationship with you. To let go and call on God even though most of the time we deny him not willing to take what he offers. The purest love and guidance instead choosing sin and self sabotage. When God is not only going to give you just what you need, but obliterate any box you put him in. Giving you identity, purpose and able to overcome anything. Stop fueling fire around you and let God put out the flames, start new, light fire inside you to live for him and have eternal life.

Song: Wildflower

Dizzy from the circles I was lost
Checked my pulse
I was alive, but wondered why
The weight of the world had me feeling 6ft under
Who am I
Then your words shook my corpse alive
God you held me tight
With the whispers to get me through the night
You spoke awakening into my life

Maybe you should put down your own match first
I will always be there to save you from the fire
But maybe you should put down the lighter
I will always be here with my arms open wide
ready to protect you from the engulfing of your life
But I am asking you

To put down the gasoline
stop fueling the fire with sin
Put down the gasoline
Take my hand
Throw down your shame
Throw down regrets
Can’t you see
You don’t have to live in a forest fire
Look to the clouds I can take you higher
I can take you higher

You cant see me through the smoke
child it pains me to watch you choke
Call on me to spring up a well
Overflow, Fill the hole inside your soul
Put out the flames and birth growth
Out of ashes beauty rose
Field of wild flowers
Listen here wild flower

Put down the gasoline
stop fueling the fire with sin
Put down the gasoline
take my hand
Throw down your shame
Throw down regrets
Can’t you see
You don’t have to live in a forest fire
Look to the clouds I can take you higher
I can take you higher

You are a vessel , Water flows
Holy Spirit, fill the hole inside your soul
Put out the flames and Birth growth
Out of ashes beauty rose
Field of wild flowers
Listen here wild flower

Put down the gasoline
stop fueling the fire with sin
Put down the gasoline
take my hand
Throw down your shame
Throw down regrets
Can’t you see
You don’t have to live in a forest fire
Look to the clouds I can take you higher
I can take you higher

By my stripes you are healed, done deal
Promises, fill the whole inside your soul
Put out the flames and birth growth
Out of ashes beauty rose
Field of wild flowers
Beloved wild flower

Matches and gas in my hand
I don’t know what to do
I can barley stand
No more air in my lungs
I can’t breath
Fall on my knees
God please rescue me
I am giving you all of me

(All to Jesus I surrender, All to him I Freely give
I will ever love and trust him, in his presence daily live
I surrender all, I surrender all, all to thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all.)

What if I told you I am giving it all up, to surrender to Jesus. This is just the beginning of my walk with Christ and this blog is to talk about my journey, things God is placing on my heart, the highs and lows, missions, everything and all things Jesus. I give my life to Jesus because his love for me is relentless and he is worthy of all my praise.