A Father’s Faithfulness

It’s crazy what can change in just a year. One year ago it was placed on my heart to leave the comfort of my the life I had worked so hard at building in South Carolina. It didn’t make sense to me or my family. I had accomplished so much at my age and had the life I always thought I wanted. Then Jesus came into my life and turned it completely upside down (in a good but sometimes scary way). I’d been in church and I loved the Lord with all my heart but I felt compelled to do more. So, I begin looking into missions. There are many missions to choose from, but I was drawn to Youth with a Misson, Discipleship Training School. It is a 12 week mission located in Louisville, Kentucky. We will be working hands on within the community and learning discipleship and evangelism in the classroom. Everything we do is driven by the desire to grow closer to God. The mission will end with a 10 week outreach phase to spread the gospel overseas. I am so excited to have this opportunity to not only serve the Lord but the community as well.

I am two weeks out from the start date for youth with a mission! I am excited and scared all at the same time, and looking forward to sharing the ups and downs of this adventure with you guys! Right now, I am in awe of Gods faithfulness. If you are in a place where you need encouragement, listen to Reckless love by Cory Ashbury…it’s my go to!

And oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
And I couldn’t earn it, and I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah
There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me

When he placed this on my heart to do missions. It took patience which is something I am not really good at and holding on with hope, when I didn’t think I would get to this moment. Faith in myself and God was wavering, but holding on to a promise this last year has brought me joy along with trails and sometimes faith the size of a mustard seed. God never fails and I am filled with joy he has trusted me with this adventure to go overseas spreading the gospel. My wallpaper for my phone this last year has been-“Everything you have spoken, will come to pass, let it be done.”Everything that happens will come to pass and will be used for good, I don’t want anything that isn’t Gods plan for my life. I am most looking forward to growing in a more intimate relationship with God, to be able to serve the needs to those around me and overseas! I ask for your prayers during this time to live in the moment, don’t let self doubt get in the way of seeking God and opportunities to grow deeper in faith, praying for wisdom, humility and radical bold faith. Thank you, for the supporting my blog and I am looking forward to posting more often, this is a huge change for me and I am sure there will be lots of stories!

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Mirror Mirror On The Wall, Is God Really Real After All?

God is REAL and he desires a relationship with all of us! These are my lessons learned in 2017, during my first year of seeking an intimate relationship with God.

Lessons learned in 2017 about God, in no particular order:
Share yours in the Comments!

1. Say YES! Last year I made a decision to do Youth with a Mission which is a 5 month Discipleship Training Program, it begins this year in March- 12weeks bible study and 10 weeks overseas. Many times I have gotten the comment that’s great do you feel like its your calling/were you called? Or that’s great God has a strong calling on your life etc. It wasn’t a grand thing, and I don’t want anyone to get discouraged about doing missions or looking into what it would be like to be a missionary. My decision came from a place of really desiring a intimate relationship with God, starting to read my bible and one day I read Matthew 28:19 “Therefore go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father in the name of the Son and in the name of the Holy Spirit.” Then I said Okay and began researching missions, simple. I have no idea what’s to come or what’s going to happen after, this is really the first time in my life I don’t have everything planned out, but I am really excited. I was also reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan which is a must read.

2. Heart Conditions- like envy, jealous, greed, selfish, anger, cheating, addiction etc. and if someone upsets your not fighting flesh against flesh look at yourself, your spirit your walking in, and your heart condition. For me I had to give up Tv, facebook, instagram, YouTube, and snapchat. Not that I think any of these things are bad, but for me I needed a break. I need to work on my heart condition of priorities, controlling thoughts while using social media and seeking God first not the last 5min of the day when I am about to fall asleep after playing on my phone for 5 hours.

3. Serving One Master- For me as a young adult, trying to build my life and be successful living in a world where more is better. This last year was about learning the true value of time and money. Your either serving God or the Devil and I was serving the devil when it came to making money, keeping it to myself, and choosing work over family time in order to make more money. Killing myself for what? To make more money for myself to store up for…one day. I am a fleeting vapor, nothing is mine because it all belongs to God. Seeking God even when I don’t feel like it.

4. The Bible- 2017 is the first time I have picked up a bible and read it, and I am so blown away by all the truth, wisdom, and Gods love poured out on each page. It was also a time of enjoying church for the first time and learning how vital it is for me to attend when it comes to accountability, staying focused on God and not getting blown off track. That being said I also began watching sermons at home at least two times a week which is when I really feel intimate with God. This has helped the most because sometimes in church its hard for me to be in the moment and connect.

5. Live Light- God loves me and wants to know everything. There is no reason to walk around with the weight of the world regrets, shame, guilt, worry, anxieties etc. Sometimes it is hard to let go but God is always there, ready to take the load.

6. Spiritual Warfare is real- 2017 has had its ups and downs of insomnia, sleep paralysis, nightmares, and to many to count almost car wrecks. It has shown me the importance of a Mentor someone to guide you, pray for you, be there to come pray over house and just be a good friend in Faith.

7. God is worthy of everything- 2017 was a learning year, trying everything to try and make myself feel something- worthy, successful, alive. Trying new jobs, school, apartment, dating apps etc. To being embraced by God who calls me daughter, picked me up, turned my life around, gave me purpose and joy. God is worthy!

8. Prayer- Is the most important thing when it comes to seeking and maintaining a relationship with God. This is something I struggled with in the beginning, and you might be in the same boat, my advice would be to start by just being conscious of God throughout the day in your thoughts. Maybe starting off just talking to him all day long,  even if its just a few words at a time, like Thank you God. It doesn’t have to be a scheduled time and when it comes to talking to God,  sharing your thoughts and feelings there is no wrong way to do it, God loves and wants YOU ALWAYS.

Mirror Mirror on the Wall
Have I Learned Anything at all
Past predicts your future
Things you think become your habits
Unless you let God have it

Mirror Mirror on the wall
I thought you were the only friend, I could count on
But you are flawed
You tell me lies, you don’t see me for what’s on the inside
I have learned to find truth
In my saviors eyes

Mirror mirror on the wall
I have to go there’s people in need
I don’t have time to stand around, just looking at me
With greed, envy, jealousy
There’s so much more than me, me, me

Mirror Mirror on the wall
This is the year, I surrender all
The year GOD gets it all
Reflection of self seeking ways, with only me in mind
This is where I leave you behind
Goodbye

Sacrifice is my meditation word for 2018. The Hebrew word for Sacrifice is Korban which means “coming closer”. It derives from the root word Karev which means to “Draw near” to gain intimacy with God. Thoughts behind this word is God has given me everything and I struggle somedays to give him anything. This year is about giving God my time, heart, thoughts, not only tithe but offering, and being a servant to the kingdom of God.

Mark 1:43-45
Whoever wants to become great among you must serve the rest of you like a servant. 44 Whoever wants to become the first among you must serve all of you like a slave. 45 In the same way, the Son of Man did not come to be served. He came to serve others and to give his life as a ransom for many people.”

Philippians 3:7-10
Those things were important to me, but now I think they are worth nothing because of Christ. 8 Not only those things, but I think that all things are worth nothing compared with the greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. Because of him, I have lost all those things, and now I know they are worthless trash. This allows me to have Christ 9 and to belong to him. Now I am right with God, not because I followed the law, but because I believed in Christ. God uses my faith to make me right with him. 10 I want to know Christ and the power that raised him from the dead. I want to share in his
sufferings and become like him in his death. 11 Then I have hope that I myself will be raised from the dead.

Luke 9:24
For whoever wishes to gain his life will loses it. And whoever loses his life for my-sake, he is the one who will gain it.

 

 

Where’s The Evidence?

Now Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

It is by faith we understand that the whole world was made by God’s command so what we see was made by something that cannot be seen.

Men know about God. He has made it plain to them. Men cannot say they do not know about God. From the beginning of the world, men could see what God is like through the things He has made. This shows His power that lasts forever. It shows that He is God. Romans 1:19-20

By The heavens declare the glory of God, and the skies announce what his hands have made. Day after day they tell the story; night after night they tell it again.They have no speech or words; they have no voice to be heard.But their message goes out through all the world; their words go everywhere on earth. Psalms 19:1-4

By Faith Abel…
By Faith Enoch…
By Faith Noah…
By Faith Abraham…
By Faith Sarah…
By Faith Abraham…
By Faith Jacob…
By Faith Isaac…
By Faith Jacob…
By Faith Joseph…
By Faith Moses…
By Faith passed through the Red Sea….
By Faith walls of Jericho…
By Faith the prostitute of Rahab…
By Faith (YOUR NAME)…

By faith what are you going to do with your life? Change the course of what people think you are capable of, change the course of history, change the lives of many with your story of your faith in God. Have faith and let God be the author of your story, guide your steps, and let go of things holding you back. I Pray that from this day forward you start to renew your faith and refresh your mind, body, and soul. Spending time with God in the word, mediation, prayer, and going out into the world giving your heart to the broken. By Faith (YOUR NAME)…

What I do to prioritize my mind in the morning:
By Faith today and forever, I (Jessica) am going to live my life for my Creator, Savior, Christ My King, My Heavenly Father who has given me everything, love is greater than all things, I surrender myself to Gods will.

And what more shall I say? Through their faith they defeated kingdoms. They did what was right, received God’s promises, and shut the mouths of lions.They stopped great fires and were saved from being killed with swords. They were weak, and yet were made strong. They were powerful in battle and defeated other armies.Women received their dead relatives raised back to life. Others were tortured and refused to accept their freedom so they could be raised from the dead to a better life.

Post Based on Hebrews 11

 

Permission To Be DIFFERENT

Poem.

I see bullets as they fly, traitors crossing enemy lines, I hear the cries
There’s a war going on in my mind
It’s myself getting in the way of gods time
His peace, His love I could go for days
But I already stopped listening anyways
I don’t understand because our hashtag blessings
Come from the things with the most dollar signs
Society has taught me worth
Comes from my Instagram feed, Facebook likes, retweets and tinder swipes
I will forever be searching for the meaning of my life
But I will never find it, until I live like my identity is found in Jesus Christ
My creator, savior, Christ the King who’s love for me is greater than all things
Who says pick up your cross child
Trust in me

The God who created butterflies giraffes
Everything wants you and me for eternity
I know he has a more creative plan for me
I need to stop sending snapchats to guys who never really wanted me
Hiding things on my computer history
Because lukewarm people won’t make it into heaven
To praise and sing with the Lord in heaven
I am in a stalemate to much knowledge to suppress
But to scared to take a step forward jump of the ledge

Holy Spirit come save me I want to know God more
Because that’s the only time I don’t feel swallowed anymore
By the black hole this earth has created by saying the American Dream is the only thing that is valuable
But I will always be chasing
Never been so alone, guess this is it work to the death and not enjoy it at all

But I was a good person God why didn’t I get my ticket into heaven
This is something I never want to question
Judgement day is always near
God I can’t tell you why you still let me live here
For I deny you when others are near
Please deliver me from this fear
For I know Jesus Christ is the only one who can save me
From this life I have so far been wasting
I pray every day I am welcomed home
God I no longer want to hide my face
I know I am saved by grace
Today I start over make me new
I am not of this world
I want heavens view

 

Permission to be different

I am 23 and I have never had a boyfriend, this is something I always felt embarrassed about. Why cant I just have what everyone else has, why can’t I fit in its not easy to make friends, I don’t like parties or drinking. Always felt why would they want to be my friend if I don’t relate to them. We would have nothing to talk about, so I never really tried. Which turned into telling myself “your weird, I hate you, your stupid, everyone can do life why are you so awkward”. I tried to fill the God shaped hole in my soul with everything jobs, education, materialistic things, social media, Tv, working out, food etc. About a year ago I had reached everything I set out to do, about to finish my education, working at one of the highest paying places I could work for my career and feeling like I needed more- unsatisfied. The last thing on my list was a boyfriend so I got tinder ( you can laugh it worst idea ever) at this point in my life never been on a date, never really talked to guy, or had a first kiss. Got tinder and basically threw myself at whoever would pay attention to me. I promised my Dad before he passed that I would save myself for marriage and that is what god wants, so from a young age that is something I have always felt a strong conviction to keep. During this season I wasn’t listening to God or his plans. Doing everything my way in my time. Knowing this wasn’t what God wanted, but I didn’t care because I wanted to fit in and do what everyone else was doing. Trying to convince myself that it’s not really sex, putting myself in scary situations with basically strangers, who didn’t really know me and who didn’t know God. Doing things I never ever thought I would do and convincing myself it’s okay this is how the world works its normal in society. Leading to more destruction, but God staying with me, loving me, and being a good good father it was definitely a teaching season. Even though I did everything to try and be “good” my whole life no drinking, cussing, family first and I had waited until 21 to have my first kiss. It was not Gods timing and with a stranger in situation I didn’t need to be in, thinking this was exactly what I needed to do, it was right. All sins are forgiven through Jesus, but God would rather be blessing us than teaching us, my lesson was 3 months with Mono. That didn’t stop me from being selfish and seeking my ways over God, missing what was right in front of me the purest love God himself, healing, unbreakable commitment to me, and what I have been searching for my whole life. Instead trading that in for guys I would meet once or twice trying to convince myself every time this is the one. When really I was compromising everything about myself and morals. After about 8 months (which in the Bible 8 signifies new beginnings) I had my come to Jesus moment. A guy came over unexpectedly that I told I didn’t want to hang out with again. He came in pretty aggressive and just saying a bunch of stuff, like I am already here, we wont go to far, lets just chill. I remember laying on the bed, looking at the ceiling and saying “God I don’t want to do this anymore please save me”. After a couple more minutes I got the courage and kicked him out. That situation could have turned out to be totally different story and God saved me from a destructive way of living and thinking. Instead he said daughter of mine, you are mine and I love you. That day I cried, prayed, went and opened my Bible- Psalms 34 which was beyond perfect and a moment I will cherish. Truly a day that changed everything, God is worthy of all my praise, and about 2 weeks later decided to do Youth with a Mission Discipleship Training School. The night I decided yes I want to give this all up my job, apartment, security, to live for God and that is when I wrote this poem which is the first one I ever wrote. I began to read Crazy Love by Francis Chan (favorite book) it has so much truth, questions we should be asking ourselves and what our lives should look like. I was stuck in figuring out how to be normal and fit in when God calls us for so much more than normalcy. God gives us the authority to be set free and not to be conformed to the world. When I was reading the book it was like I needed permission to be who I always thought I wanted to be. I was like wait “your telling me I don’t have to have a ton of stuff or money and things to be counted as successful, its okay to be single, its okay not to like parties and drinking, its okay to not fit in, its okay to be different you weren’t called to be a copy of someone else, what would Jesus and his lifestyle look like if he was on earth today, God wants so much more than just trying to have good behavior, he wants me for who I am and my heart, his ways and will is the only thing I have to answer to and what’s truly worth living for, I am set free because of Jesus and the cross” One part in my poem it says “I know you have a more creative plan for me” God created every animal, person, and nature etc. Yes, God has a more creative plan for all of us than the life we choose on our terms if we have faith and trust in him. Permission to be different.

Mark 5:28-34
28 For she said to herself, “If I can only touch His coat, I will be healed.” 29 At once the flow of blood stopped. She felt in her body that she was healed of her sickness.30 At the same time Jesus knew that power had gone from Him. He turned and said to the people following Him, “Who touched My coat?” 31 His followers said to Him, “You see the many people pushing on every side. Why do You ask, ‘Who touched My coat?’” 32 He looked around to see who had done it. 33 The woman was filled with fear when she knew what had happened to her. She came and got down before Jesus and told Him the truth. 34 He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be free from your sickness.”

Romans 12:2English Standard Version (ESV)
2 Do not be conformed to this world,[a] but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.[b]

Sermon on Sex and relationships: What’s the problem with Pineapples by Pastor Levi Lusko Amazing Sermon about sex and the world vs. Bible.

 

 

 

 

 

 

My #1 Struggle in Hearing God

What I struggle with the most when it comes to my walk with God is distractions. Especially social media, YouTube, Tv and worrying what others think. Everyday waking up trying to reprioritize my mind what’s important and what’s not. When 98% of the things I think/worry, do in my spare time, and look at on my phone are not important at all. I think a lot people have that one thing that God delivered them from and is their testimony, but everyday we are sinners, everyday God is saving us and helping us work through things. One day I was feeling like I am not hearing God anymore, when I first started my journey everyday I would get poem, song, or revelation. I prayed God why can’t I hear you, then wrote down this poem. It was a wake up call he revealed “it’s not me (God) I love you and never leaving- your distracted with everything/ everyone and wonder why you can’t hear me”. I truly feel that I didn’t write this (I know that sounds crazy) but for real I wrote it down, looked at it and knew none of it came from me. I absolutely hated English in school. Until this last year I never read a book for my own pleasure in my whole life, by no means did I ever think in a million years I would be writing down poems and songs. It just goes to show if we stop telling God how the relationship is going to go and telling him how he is going to use us, and submit to him. Things you never saw coming will happen because he is God.The first poem I ever wrote, was after I decided to do YWAM school (I will share it in a later blog) and I thought “this is nice”. Two weeks later saw Clayton Jennings who has awesome Christian spoken word videos. I was like wait God you use poems to spread your word. I was in awe and kind of ashamed that I always put God in a box. When he can use anything he wants, anyone, in anyway to spread his kingdom on earth. That includes YOU! I wanted to share this poem this week because it’s something that I am still struggling with a lot this last month and I think a lot of people can relate- it’s written as God is the one talking. If you have a struggle you want to share go to the contact page I want to pray for you.

POEM: Sinners Voicemail

Leave a message after the beep

BEEP

The deceiver delivered Adam and Eve out of their destiny
The chosen now unholy
Covered in leaves
Hiding in the trees
Hiding from me
The one who gave them a heart beat
What does this have to do with you
Belief into deceived
Crushed mustard seed
Adam and Eve that was so many years ago
Let me get to the point I know you got 10 text messages 5 seconds ago

Child why can’t you hear me when I am calling your name
Child don’t hide don’t run in shame
I sent my sons grace to deliver you
If only you would let me replace
The sin you have chosen to call home
You ask the universe- not me
Why you can’t get out of the situation your living in
Yet You refuse to give up the sin your lying in
Long enough for me to change you
Show you how your positioning is molding you

You can’t put your distractions away
Satan is beautiful
Like, scroll, and dream into a new life all day
Stop trying to be someone else, when I created you perfectly
You will be trying to fill this hole for the rest of your life
Unless you let me spring up a well
To flood out the hell you have created in yourself
I can cleanse you
Eternal life is waiting for you

But you won’t clean your ears or eyes or mouth
And your so consumed with the lies the world is feeding you
Stop eating your obesity is killing you
You will not climb higher in life when your dead weight is making it hard to breath
Your suffocating yourself
Look at me
If only you wouldn’t swallow
Instead chew on my truth
Be transformed not conformed
Prosperous life

Yet when I send you a best friend in the darkest times
You spit in her face, pull her hair, cuss her into thin air
I guess this is the only way to tell you
Grace has been trying to call you
Next time you might want to answer
She has a very important message for you
She has been in your contacts since the beginning
Every time you clicked on darkness instead of the light
Hating yourself not sleeping at night,
When you should have been dreaming about the wonders of life

Grace wanted to save you
A friend who will always hear you
She doesn’t need comments or likes
24/7 grace wants you just the way you are
Be apart of your life
She can save you from the sins you have fallen into
You just have to call her back, she is waiting for you

You weren’t meant to carry the knowledge of the world in your back pocket
And worship it like a deity
And throw away your morals to the first person who pays attention to you
Child do you hear me
There is no where you can go
Where I don’t love you or can save you
Put me on speaker phone I love you
And I am not going anywhere, I claim you as my child

I am not going to stand down
When the prince of the air is hunting you
Lion on the prowl wanting to devour you
Because there is nothing or no one who can defeat me
But you let evil in minute after minute denying me
No wonder your stressed
And even though you have the knowledge of the world
You can’t see it’s a trap

The world wants you to miss the very thing that gives you life
By feeding you things you think you need to survive
But only brings you lies
And I don’t want you to die wondering what happened to the time
Why did I waste my life when I could have been living
Is the question I don’t want my children to be asking

We look at Eve and ask why did she bite the apple
Yet you can’t keep your eyes off the bitten Apple
Bitting into it everyday
Bitting the apple thinking it’s going to better you
Bitting the apple looking for a different you
Bitting the apple believing you will get ahead
Bitting the apple hand delivered from the enemy
Bitting the apple when I can make you no longer hungry
Bitting the apple losing me
Bitting the apple rotting your destiny
Bitting into the apple looking for anything to hold onto
But the guy on top of you is only going to crush you
Bitting the apple like it’s your next high—candy– roller coaster ride

Stop fooling yourself, I know your sick from the twists and up side downs
Thrown off course
If only you could see I am the cornerstone
Your foundation where you can stand tall, you will never fall- where I can’t catch you
Come to my banquet and I will forever sustain your appetite
With my sons name Jesus Christ

But you can’t hear me over
Ringing, dinging, buzzing all day long trying to to distract you
From seeing yourself, who you have become
Likes are your heroin
Comments cocaine
Snapchats from boys are your pain killers
Child please stop I am calling your name
Apples for you to bite are falling all around you
phone, social media, tv, friends, family,
Opposite sex just wanting to get you to your knees so you can worship them
Instead of me

Quit bitting the apple eve your just being deceived
Don’t think your alone
It’s everyone around you
Moms, dads, young adults, teens, children, families
Your all being deceived
The place you have access to read my truth
Is the same place you can watch pornography
It’s time to look up and see the world that I created for you
I set you a apart consecrated you
Plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
Plans to give you hope and a future

What I have planned for you is inconceivable to the human mind
I am just asking you to communicate with me
Start pruning your tree
But you need to stop letting what’s around you, separate us
Destroy you
Put down the apple eve all I want to do is love you

It breaks my heart to see you cry
I promise the heat from my light
will evaporate the tears you cry
Rainbow, sunshine, I will send to you even in the darkest night
Let me save you
Please call home
I am waiting
Love your Heavenly Father

Sorry voice mailbox is full, sinner will not receive your message

 

Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with ALL YOUR HEART, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.”

First Blog Post: Site Idenity

Trying to be a wild flower in a concrete jungle of this world and the American Dream that sets in concrete the standard at which success is measured. Which determines your value as a person how much money you have, your car, house, followers, Facebook likes etc. What if I told you I wanted to throw it all away, blow up everything I have accomplished so far. Blow up every idea of success pushed down my throat since kindergarten. Burn every picture on every social media platform I look to, to tell me what happiness looks like. Leaving me to figure out who I am, when really I just want to know why can’t I be them. Suffocating in comparison, poisoned by envy, and walking dead by jealousy. What if I told you at 22 I had accomplished everything society asked of me. I have a career in a job I love, my own apartment, moved away from home live by the beach, located in the #1 most visited city in the world. Feeling empty inside and question is this really it. Only to found out it means nothing and in the end if I die with only these things I acquired for myself my life was wasted. What did I really do, did I leave the world any better than when I was born into it. Trying to feel grateful and content only to be met with a stirring that if a butterfly is a small insect so beautiful with so many colors and can fly. Wouldn’t God have a more creative plan for my life much bigger plans than to work and die. At 23 I have found the love of my life Jesus Christ it was a long road to get to this point. I didn’t think this is where I would be writing a post about Jesus, but grace chases you down and shakes you to the core. Every question I have had about who am I, why am I here, what is the point to all this…I have the answers by finding my identity in Jesus Christ. Whatever your living with whether it’s feeling worthless, depression, addiction, sickness, trauma, relationships, or whatever it may be God is the only one that can give you the purest love, peace, strength, joy, guidance and this is his promise to us.

I googled what happens to plants after a fire article said “trees and decaying plant matter, when a fire turns them to ashes, nutrients return to soil instead of remaining captive in old vegetation. And when fire rages through dry underbrush, it clears thick growth so sunlight can reach the forest floor and encourage growth of native species. Fire frees these plants from the competition delivered from invasive weeds and eliminates diseases or droves of insects that may have been causing damage to old growth. Wild flowers begin to bloom abundantly.”

Article: https://science.howstuffworks.com/environmental/green-science/how-forest-fire-benefit-living-things-2.htm

Let’s Break it Down:
You don’t have to walk through the fire for when God puts out the flames the ashes of your past are going to be the nutrients for your future. These are the nutrients that are going to help others grow and inspire them. Whatever skepticism or doubts you have God says come as you are faith the size of a mustard seed seek God and watch him work in your life.
Matthew 17:20
And He said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you.

Your old self is burned away you no longer have to live with anxiety, depression, addiction etc. you are set free from captivity or whatever chains were placed on you by the world. You are the beginning of a new creation the ashes is your testimony which is your nutrients to remind yourself of how great God is, his faithfulness and worthy of praise.
John 15:5
I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

Fire clears thick growth- any and all burdens you carry God wants to take from you. All your pain and scares you don’t have to hold on to anything the world has done to you or made think about yourself. You are set free.
Matthew 11:28-30
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Thick growth clears so sunlight can reach the forest floor and encourage growth. Let the revelation of Jesus, who he is and his love for you be the light that evaporates the tears you cry.
James 1:17
17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
Psalm 27:1
1 The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid?
1 Peter 2:9
9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

Encourage Growth- stop trying to hide in shame invite him in, God wants to know your problems and have a personally relationship with you. In order for him to get inside your heart you have to let go of some of the hurt so you can move forward and see all God has planned for you. God wants you exactly the way you are God can not love you anymore or any less than he does right now in this moment. Gods love is not earned or held at a standard there is nothing you can do to earn it. It’s giving freely and abundantly he does not love like the world because he is not of this world.
Psalms 86:15
“But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.”

Fire frees these plants from the competition delivered from invasive weeds and eliminates diseases or droves of insects that may have been causing damage to old growth. Christ gives the authority to bring us out of a life of comparison, competition, rat race of the world and deliver us from the belief of self serving success of achieving the American Dream is the only thing worth living for.
Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Eliminates Diseases- whether it be sickness, mental, or physical pain.
Isaiah 53:5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
Psalm 103:2-4
2 Praise the LORD, my soul, and forget not all his benefits—
3 who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion,
Isaiah 40:28-31
28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Wild flowers bloom abundantly- that God wants us to be free to be transformed, unafraid, worry less, burden less, to rejoice in him and bloom abundantly. The only message is love and by him be set free blooming all around the world showing the beauty of God for everyone to see spreading gospel and saving souls.

Listen here Wildflower:
I wrote this Song to encourage others stop letting the world devastate you and living in hell that your not supposed to be in. That there is a Savior that calls you beloved and desires to have a personally relationship with you. To let go and call on God even though most of the time we deny him not willing to take what he offers. The purest love and guidance instead choosing sin and self sabotage. When God is not only going to give you just what you need, but obliterate any box you put him in. Giving you identity, purpose and able to overcome anything. Stop fueling fire around you and let God put out the flames, start new, light fire inside you to live for him and have eternal life.

Song: Wildflower

Dizzy from the circles I was lost
Checked my pulse
I was alive, but wondered why
The weight of the world had me feeling 6ft under
Who am I
Then your words shook my corpse alive
God you held me tight
With the whispers to get me through the night
You spoke awakening into my life

Maybe you should put down your own match first
I will always be there to save you from the fire
But maybe you should put down the lighter
I will always be here with my arms open wide
ready to protect you from the engulfing of your life
But I am asking you

To put down the gasoline
stop fueling the fire with sin
Put down the gasoline
Take my hand
Throw down your shame
Throw down regrets
Can’t you see
You don’t have to live in a forest fire
Look to the clouds I can take you higher
I can take you higher

You cant see me through the smoke
child it pains me to watch you choke
Call on me to spring up a well
Overflow, Fill the hole inside your soul
Put out the flames and birth growth
Out of ashes beauty rose
Field of wild flowers
Listen here wild flower

Put down the gasoline
stop fueling the fire with sin
Put down the gasoline
take my hand
Throw down your shame
Throw down regrets
Can’t you see
You don’t have to live in a forest fire
Look to the clouds I can take you higher
I can take you higher

You are a vessel , Water flows
Holy Spirit, fill the hole inside your soul
Put out the flames and Birth growth
Out of ashes beauty rose
Field of wild flowers
Listen here wild flower

Put down the gasoline
stop fueling the fire with sin
Put down the gasoline
take my hand
Throw down your shame
Throw down regrets
Can’t you see
You don’t have to live in a forest fire
Look to the clouds I can take you higher
I can take you higher

By my stripes you are healed, done deal
Promises, fill the whole inside your soul
Put out the flames and birth growth
Out of ashes beauty rose
Field of wild flowers
Beloved wild flower

Matches and gas in my hand
I don’t know what to do
I can barley stand
No more air in my lungs
I can’t breath
Fall on my knees
God please rescue me
I am giving you all of me

(All to Jesus I surrender, All to him I Freely give
I will ever love and trust him, in his presence daily live
I surrender all, I surrender all, all to thee my blessed Savior, I surrender all.)

What if I told you I am giving it all up, to surrender to Jesus. This is just the beginning of my walk with Christ and this blog is to talk about my journey, things God is placing on my heart, the highs and lows, missions, everything and all things Jesus. I give my life to Jesus because his love for me is relentless and he is worthy of all my praise.